A new direction..

   Today I was browsing YouTube and noticed that there are a whole lot of depressed people out there! Not your usual weekday blahs, but real suicidal and self harming depressed people who are reaching out for some sort of human interaction to make themselves feel better... This is disturbing on many levels. First, YouTube is laden with assholes who can easily push someone right over the edge, without regard.. Second, this type of lonely depression can't be fixed with online companionship, it will require live human contact... but how do you communicate that with people who are at the end of their rope and how does one guide them to the ways they might fix their loneliness?
   The only idea I can even think of is trying to encourage them and offer simple ideas and pray they are able to use that advise.
           
   A few basic ideas for getting people talking...

  Start a conversation with someone on the bus.
  Compliment a co-worker on an achievement.
  Start a conversation with a co-worker.
  Ask a neighbor about something that is happening in their lives. (try not to be personal)
  Try to wear a smile more as people are much more likely to approach a happy looking person.

Lets face it, people love to talk about themselves so starting a conversation is a real easy thing to do, just keep in mind that politics, religion and giving advice on relationships are not good topics as people are way too touchy about those things. I know this will sound silly but acting is a great way to bust out of a depressed funk. By acting I mean, act like you are a happy person, even if you aren't, cause people recoil from depressing topics or people and are attracted to happy or pleasant people. Again if you are acting today then maybe as time goes on it won't be acting anymore.

  A thought for mood improvement...
   Try finding one good thing that is happening to/for you each day...
 A good nights sleep..
 A nice day outside...
 A good cup of coffee...
 Saw a cute animal on my way to the car...talked to it.
 Saw the neighbor kid playing and it made me smile...
 Stuck in traffic..but my AC and Radio works...

 Little things add up, and if you are looking for those things then the bad ones are being left behind.

    Other thing that help me with mood issues...

Who do they look like? I find a face in the crowd and try and find who they most resemble.
On the streets of Denver I have seen several Danny Glovers a George Bush a bunch of Queen Latifas...you get my drift. It takes your mind off of things.

Another one I use is imagining the outcome of pranks pulled on those around you, like I use the people on the bus and imagine someone coming in and pulling different pranks on them and that sometimes makes me giggle like an idiot but I'm having fun.

Make up funny names for people at work or on the bus..like if a guy is wearing thick glasses then he is now goggles...the lady in the green dress is now known as green dress, etc... "Good morning Green Dress" "Pleasant day Goggles" obviously don't say it out loud but have fun at others expense, it isn't harming anyone and it will improve your mood.

Try creating a story by using the signs you pass on the street, if you are like me it will stump you in a few blocks.

  One of the most basic triggers for loneliness is an idle mind , too much time to think about how bad you think your life is, so fill that idle time with something amusing!

Anonymous Dip S***s!

Have you noticed all these annoying little pricks on youtube, usually those emmy award winners who's philosophy is argue with everyone and be a complete ass for no reason at all, have no real fact and just throw out random non sense and verbal abuses till everyone leaves, then move to the next post. And 99.9% of the time they have

one of these stupid assed profile pics!

Sorry people, the whole "Anon" thing has nothing to do with your dumbass web browsing!

The entire point of the Anon movement is to remain anonymous online to, i will say it slowly for all you with learning disabilities, B-U-S-I-N-E-S-S-E-S!!! Big brother, Government surveillance agencies and last but not least...GOOGLE! The ONLY people you are anon from are those who have no desire to know who your stupid ass is, cause guess what dirt bag?....You gave GOOGLE your fucking name when you signed up for your account! All those you wished to remain anonymous to...They know exactly who and where you are! Good show there jackbone! So if you truly wish to be anonymous on the internet then you cannot have an email account or be joined to any kind of internet accounts at all! and sweep out your entire browser each time you use it, purge all cookies! And after all that...they STILL can trace you! Stop being so damned concerned with a concept that cannot be done, internet anonymity is a fucking myth!

Where i work

Taken from the 13th floor of where i work. I want some from 16 but it is rented. :( I'll keep trying!

frown emoticoI'll keep trying.

My new joint!

Well it has been a long time coming, but I am finally in my new place, and it is off to an astounding start! I love it here!

I have big plans for this place,,,

The whole enchilada...or my living room.

  I have touched on my plans before but I felt I could go into a bit more detail, for no reason at all save my present boredom!
 So here I go again...

      I plan to take some basic, cheap stuff from Ikea and transform an apartment into one fun
pad for the man who just needs to relax and chill at the end of his day. Yes, a man can have class
and even live clean and neat and even decorate his home in style and not be "gay". I am so tired of
that tired ass cliche! Okay, enough of my soap box and on to the good stuff!

   Between Ikea, American furniture warehouse, HomeGoods, World Market and Ross I have, or plan to, obtain:

              from Ikea:

 for my TV

 from Walmart My 40 inch TV...

Ikea... one of these

                                                                                        on either side

 then these as

                                                                                         end tables...

   Then from Walmart I plan to get these cool lamps, which happen to perfectly fit my Asian theme...

                                                                             then this

 

Then American furniture warehouse will help my endeavor with these two beauties...

 

and then to separate the kitchen and living room with style and in that Asian theme, from World Market...

 my new Shinto Screen!

I plan on filling my place with nice plants and a fountain or two, as well as I am checking into obtaining a few of these sweet little salt lights, there's a place a Cherry Creek Mall that has these that are about 11 inches tall and they are B-e-a-utiful!

I plan on at least two Bonsai trees, fakes of coarse, and a handful of tasteful Asian art pieces to fill some shelf space.

I recently went to the fabric store and bought some really nice Asian scenery fabric and stretched it onto three equal sized canvasses and made my own wall hanging, will post pics when it is all hung, it is really nice!, I encourage people to try that themselves, you may surprise yourself.

Update: I went to American today and when we were walking around we noticed that the couches were WAY cheaper than they were two weeks ago...actually affordable. Needless to say, I got a sofa instead of the two chairs..And it was cheaper by about $30. I also got a wicked 8 X 10 area rug, but I couldn't locate a pic on AFW.com...It matches everything else in the room with blues and grays and silvers... Anyway...here is the couch, the pic is deceiving, it is actually gray.

 

it is huge! I can actually lay out fully and not touch either end! They are cushions that come off and can be unzipped, removed and washed! The pillows come with it but I'm not crazy bout those! The arms are very overstuffed so maybe the wood won't be all upside my head in 6 months. For under $400 it is an excellent deal!

I finally see it!

Well...we saw the apartment for the first time today. I think it has a butt ton of potential, mom thinks it needs cleaned and dipped in a giant vat of bleach! Needless to say, the previous tenant was a very dirty individual! The carpet gets cleaned on Tuesday, then Wednesday evening I am going to bug bomb, then on Thursday and Friday night I will be scrubbing and scouring it to death! I have a great start on my furnishings and should be able to accomplish that task, with help of a friend, on Saturday! It has a HUGE amount of storage and closet space! It must have over 20 cabinets in the kitchen and 7 in the bathroom...a walk in in the bedroom, a full pantry, and a big hall closet! A front door off the living room and my back door leads out of my bedroom onto my covered porch! With another storage out there! I found several area rugs I really liked at Ikea but they are better than $150 and up, for the ones I liked..so that may wait a little while. I got my Shinto screen today, Japanese room divider for those who don't know, and it was cheaper than online, by the delivery charge. I got a real nice set of lighter grey and silver curtains for the living room..This place is going to be SO cool..I SO cannot wait!!!

What a view!

I keep trying to send pics from my work to my email from the iphone they have, but it keeps "failed to send" on me! A new iphone has been ordered and when it arrives I will post pics from the 16th floor windows. It's a pretty cool view, though I wish there was less city and more mountain...